Well, I’m not going to make it more complex. Because it already is.
I’d like to give you the raw truth about how it felt when I tried to run away. When I tried to push you away.
I was out of my mind. I was all about what all people might say crazy. I pretended like everything is alright yet my head really knew that my heart was out of control.
I know it’s hard to understand me. I am sorry. I know it’s even hard to love me.
It’s just difficult for me to admit the truth that I’m afraid of losing people. That I’m afraid of watching people go. I have a lot of trouble of trusting people.
I was somewhere else, looking for some better ways to heal my soul. To find my own self. I was perplexed of being in a self love or selfishness.
We were both misapprehend. But I didn’t give in, I won’t. And that’s the same way I wish you to.